I'm Me a Child of God

Y'all I'm doing this thing called living where as I'm doing shit my way. Redd'z way. I control who in it
around it near it. What I say goes. I love my life it's a two way street. No one to tell me how to feel how to dress how to talk. No one to questioned what I'm doing for me as a person. I'm free, yes true, I lost family,friends as I'm transforming into this uniquely diverse beautiful minded person.....Me with my smile and my attitude that could light up a stadium and beyond. I'm small with a loud voice but a heart of a True Warrior with not a heart of gold but a heart of platinum , I am Extraordinary caramel colored Queen that is a Phoenix. I spread my wings to fly high which will take me higher than, I was before. I'm Extraordinary ask GOD lol he showing you now as we speak. I'm a Child of God the Most High. Man can't tell me shit. I'm cocky very and can hold my own no matter what. I'm Extraordinary. I'm it can't you see do you feel it. I'm a blessing in disguise, most don't even know it. I'm a Child of God I'm Extraordinary. I speak from me but speak for all, I'm a Child of God a blessing in disguise with Extraordinary Talents with a loud voice yes hear me roar, I'm the Extraordinary, Divers, Unique Beautiful Black Queen cause I come from the Most High.

I Passed My Class

I passed my class wow didn't think I could do it. But wow I passed my class. Along with the other things and life situations I passed my class. No matter how lonely I felt with very little family love support I passed my class. To always want to be with family but no the vibes are fake, I passed my class no corrections my classes but I passed my class. The family that we do still communicate with they show me love tell me to continue to keep my head up and....I passed my class. It was a test to see how far and what other things I can do with my mind on a different level. I passed my class my true friends and support who has helped me along the way.... Y'all I passed my class. To those I never met those who follow and speak from time to time I passed my class. My main support my close inner circle we chat, talk,hang,visit living together my neighbors I passed my class. Yes I'm excited yes I'm proud but no matter what I was feeling going through,doing....I passed my class. The whole point is to this is "You can do it no matter what" You can pass any class to just always keep your head up. I am who I say I am regardless of my skin my character. I passed my class no matter what.....I passed my class :-).

#SSRSBS

Smoke Something Roll Something Burn Something all in that order but to understand this smoking this may not be for everyone in some cases you have to eat or drink but that's another story in my book; but to release your mind relax and let your ass follow is the whole concept of smoking. I have 34yrs of smoking the finest of smoke. Over the year's people who bumped into me on my personal time would say Redd I didn't know you smoke I reply yes I always do or have every chance I get. But all in favor it relaxes me takes me on a whole other level. To me it's better than taking a anti depressants to make you feel.....so called normal. It's a natural medicine as you call it a miracle plant with many benefits. When I smoke I hear nothing I worry about nothing and in most cases I don't speak; that's because I'm feeling my meds I'm enjoying my moment of Heaven. I can think and move around get my thoughts together just like a person who don't smokes enjoy coffee,tea or soda the same as if a person has asthma. You have to inhale to get that full effect that THC effect has in order to understand what I'm saying. To be on another level as to be on point be motivated to get up and carry on with your everyday life and never a mistake is called motivation to me. You can't judge something if you don't understand it or never experienced of being your best and wording your words to where people are interested in what your about to say or do. It's a great feeling not to take man made meds that has many side effects that causes more bodily harm than good. So to judge a person that smokes marijuana is worst than giving your car keys to a drunk person. I say read up learn don't judge .....these words I'm out.

Nothing to say

I have nothing to say. Hmmm nope not nothing to say but the thoughts that run through my mind.....wow I have nothing to say. Is it cause I'm lost for words at the moment or I have nothing to say. Silence that's all I hear through all the noise and moving around from the world....I have nothing to say. Is it because we don't know each other or on our own thing....hmm I have nothing to say. No matter how I speak or be polite with a smile and most things brother me; out of all this.....wow I still have nothing to say.

I wonder why

I wonder why thing's are like they are. I wonder why some people act like their your friend or cool with you; why do it seems like they change when your doing good. I wonder why when people say they love you in the end you see their true colors. Why do people hurt one another; and why is it that family hurt you more then others and they think it's ok. WHY....I ask why...why is it so much violence in the world....why all I wanna know is why. WHY we work so hard and still have nothing really to show for it ...why..Why is life harder than some days why we feel the way we feel or do what we do but I do ask why. Why is there so many elders stuck in nursing homes bout to die and no one says anything on abuse untill it's to late...why...I ask why of so much ..I can hear the cries of many and feel their pain. Why no one believes me when I say I dreamt I wasn't gonna see that person no more not knowing that they will pass away...why I just ask why. How come no one hearing anything anyone is saying. WHY....can you tell me why can you explain to me why these things are possible or why it happens can ......anyone hear .me....can anyone see me why I ask why are these things so...Why I ask....Just why.

Holidays

My view on the holidays, I was raised that your safe,happy and content with your love one's and your happy that everyone is well and in good health. Everyone looking out for everyone the kids on the block is everyone kid's; you felt safe and everyone helped everyone. Those was happy blessed times, history as you may call it. But now 34yrs later lot's have changed. It's sad to say we have so much hate towards one another. It's sad that the weak take from the weaker; rather you work your ass off it gives no person no right to take anything that's not theirs. We all have done things that we are not proud of and for a person to take another person's life.......wow...smfh.....it's sad very sad. To much killing too much violence too much our mom's, dad's grandma,grandpa grandchildren aunt's,uncle's niece's,nephew's,cousin's uncle's...why we killing for what.....STOP.....STOP...WE KILLING OUR SELF FOR NO REASON......STOP LISTEN..........STOP.

Thinking as I write

I'm thinking as I write this why my mind is blank. What's going on to where as I can't write what's on my mind all this space and free time .....wow I wonder I'm thinking as I write my head hurts wondering why I can't write. Is it cause of my excitement for school, marijuana or cause holidays; all this free time and I can't write... .someone tell me help me why I can't write for I want the world to know to see wow thinking as I write...I have nothing to think about the violence that takes place while others turn their cheeks dam thinking as I write I have nothing to say all this space and I'm thinking as I write how come no one hears the cries of many or others and no yet put their hand out to help dam thinking as I write I have lots to say but no ones listening all this space as I'm thinking as I write can the world have peace oh Lord I ask can there be peace as I'm thinking as I writing why oh why can't we stand as one thinking as I write with no one to hear,respond,laugh,cry,help,have forgiveness,have love thinking as I write no one hears me till its too late thinking as I write I'm alone in flesh but my heavenly father the most high but I'm thinking as I write where is the true love amongst us to how come you can't say I love you without people taking things the wrong way I'm thinking as I'm writing didn't our God make man in his own image and to me the world is beautiful but thinking as I'm writing it seems to me that I see that only thinking as I write I feel so alone in this big world with no support I see people from distance thinking as I write this my voice my thoughts my dreams my hopes my fears my faults my success so as I'm thinking as I write in all this space and peace why thinking as I write I still have nothing to say no one to talk to or no one to listen and I'm thinking as I write I still after all this time I still have nothing to say but thinking as I write I shall continue for one day my calls will be answered and the world will see me as I'm thinking and I'm writing with nothing to say with all this space I'm still thinking as I write.