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I'm Lost for Words

I met a young man yesterday and I never seen this young man before. We was chatting and one thing lead to another. The vibe was great and I brought this young man to my house after a few shots we had we got to talking. So today he called me and asked me could he stop through, I said yes but he also asked me could he bring his friend, I said cool. So after we sat here and chatted for a seconds we realized that we had other things in common. So in the mist of the conversation a name came up and come to find out me and these two young men knew the same person. Now I have been through alot of things in my life time but this here.....wow all, I can say. So we sitting here in our meeting and the black dude say blah blah blah that he said a few names and then he say that dude his family just buried him Saturday. So then, I sat here and said ok naw we couldn't be talking about the same person because, I just talked to him like Tuesday or Wednesday of last week and he just asked me about my bong project. So the dudes was like wow ...Redd, I can't believe that you knew him. The whole time he got setup by his so called homeboy. And this shit crazy it hit me so hard that I had to call me husband and let him know what was going on cause.... I really can't believe that this boy is gone. We have to come together and stop this unnecessary madness that's going on in the world. Why is we killing each other. Why, I ask. This pain we putting each other through ...why. This don't make no sense at all. I really can't understand why we kill each other. There are other ways to solve problems people need to talk work things out. This shit here hit me so hard that, I have been crying all day and I been texting this dude the that got killed. I been texting him and texting him,the whole time he dead. I just broke down and wow, I have a whole new outlook on life and death. This shit crazy. My homeboy had just started opening up and started talking to me and asked me about my bong idea. Then he said to me one day that he in this shit because of his brother. I didn't think about it at the time but wow. I just lost two great homeboys years ago and now this. This is really messing my head right now. So if, I broke down for a person I barely knew then just imagine how, I would if it's somebody I'm really close to. We have to stop this stupid ass killing for no reason. This shit has to stop it really do. I have two papers to do and I really can't believe he gone. I hate that there is so much killing and
that we the people have to suffer cause someone on some hating shit or....they killing just because of some pasted shit this makes no sense none what so ever. And I can't understand why this shit is happening. So if I don't do nothing else but say. Please people stop killing us and each other. What you do it comes back on you if you have children....think about your children your future our future.
These are future Mayor's and future Presidents, mom's, dad's,sisters,brother's, uncle's and so on and on. Please you people who have these guns and killing please like Real Talk stop. Real Talk your really killing yourself. This shit here has really fucked my head up. I been fucked up all day. And it's funny that I don't dream but when, I do it's either something happen or it's gonna happen. I never dream but God just had me to text this dude and I had been leaving messages and and trying to leave voicemails and. I'm sitting up here thinking hard like what is it I could have done to save his life. This....wow is really messing with my head hard right now....(smh) shake my head wow, I can't believe this happen. Dude that got killed was mexican and had just started to open up to me like talking about his son that's 5....I think he five now and wow this shit is really crazy. I really can't believe he gone. That's all I can say. Like Real Talk I been crying all day and just started to calm down. I just had a talk with my babe and I was telling him that, I was blessed to get to see the real person in dude and my babe told me that, I have a gift and people open up and speak to me or I can just sense things and be on point about it. That's what makes him love me cause I be knowing. I had a family member tell me once they say and I quote" Redd you can't save Everybody". I know I can't but dam......I really wish I could. But God blessed me with this gift since I was eight years old. I'm starting to pay attention to it  more; but this shit is scary and. ... It's not for everyone. Somethings I can't go into details cause then it will mess up my path so. But wow this shit is really fucking with me very hard. I'm blessed I been out these streets now like some years now and....all, I know is that dude was trying to get out that life. Now.... I know I'm on this path to have my 3 marijuana store but....wow...I really don't know now. Should I still be with My Associates or be a Counselor...This killing has to stop. Do you all know how many lives are fucked up for life because of a killing. This shit effect's everyone not just the families but Everyone. My head is throbbing right now because I really can't believe he is gone. My heart goes out to him and his family. I know lots of people that have gotten killed but few touch me and....I'm really lost for words right now. Please Stop This Dumb Ass Killing... Please stop. I'm asking, I'm begging Please........STOP